“I am driven to hold myself upright and travel eight steps to release my waters at the altar.”
On Anxiety and Foreboding
when I see things coming at me that cause me to worry, I don’t see a problem in assuming they might happen the way that I fear, and making plans accordingly. After all, I’m often right, about both my worries and my hopes.
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Processing My Memories and My Feelings About Them Can Take Years
All this to say, I don’t remember if I consciously quit, or if I just happened to forget that I used to keep trying. I wonder what else I’ve forgotten,
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“You’ll feel like you’re dying, but you aren’t, until you are…”
“I don’t try to avoid the pain. I meditate on it. I notice its breadth and depth. I rewrite it by refusing to avoid the sensation by contorting my frame. I stand as strong as I can… no matter how hard this pain pushes back.”